|Posted by Sarah Rowan Dahl on September 20, 2012 at 8:55 AM|
I've been silent for almost a year in the land of blogging. In August 2011, my hands and joints felt disabled from a sudden and extreme inflammation that made holding my children difficult, much less a paintbrush. It was depressing to be honest. I had to take painkillers just to function, and numbness made my entire arms tingle for hours.
In March 2012, I was diagnosed basically with rheumatiod arthritis and placed on 3 medications so toxic that alcohol and conceiving a child were off limits. The swelling reduced and I was able to open and close my fingers for the first time in months, but the drugs were taxing.
By early September, I had to increase my medication because I was still in pain...but my body decided it had had enough and found myself almost in the hopsital from stomach pain. That moment, I decided I had had enough of the medication too.
SIDE NOTE: Cortisone shots in your wrist 8 hours prior to a LIVE painting gig isn't enough time. hahaha. Turns out my body didn't like the stuff and my hand was not my own. I painted over the canvas the following morning. LOL
I felt a grace to shift my diet to remove all inflammation triggering foods, and stopped my meds. More importantly, I felt God's healing presence stronger than ever and here I am, over a week without medication, almost all the soreness from my hands is gone and I feel myself again.
I'm back. I'm grateful. Go Jesus.
UPDATE March 3, 2015: I still believe in healing and still believe it can be a process and a journey. For whatever reason the journey didn't end there and I am back on medication, this time Enbrel, a weekly injection as well as natural supplements, healthier diet and swimming. It's humbling to ask for help opening tight jars and fatiguing quickly, but I'm still optimistic. My ankles and knees and fingers may feel like crap some days, but you can't take my joy. (ok...I'm writing this when I'm in a good mood, let's be real...sometimes I'm frustrated and running low on joy...but not tonight.)
Categories: Personal Insight